We had just enough time to return the coupons and do 12 T-Bombs.
Men Baby shared he had some family challenges and I shared mine.
Ha-Ha spoke about hand me down challenges, that we don’t choose yet must face. The Jewish tradition says it is God (not satan) that gives us these challenges as he knows that we are strong enough to face them and that we will come out better for doing so.
I really need to believe it now, as I’m facing some family challenges of my own. An intended family visit in a few month should be a joyful occasion, but for the last 16 years more often than not they ended with a bad taste, to say the least. I struggle to navigate these waters. I recognize my own failures over the years and I try to learn and adjust but sometimes the waves seem to high to make it through safely. Just a few moments ago I had an argument with my parents for raising the fact that we had arguments in the past so maybe we need to better align expectations. It was a bad argument, one of those that leave you shaken. I am grasping at the principles I hold true, that I know are true, and hope they will be enough. I trust my F3 brothers to provide support and encouragement as I know I’ll need them. My M is not an impartial side and I appreciate the opportunities to share my life at the COT. Without such an outlet I would hold down everything and from personal experience – it never stays down. It sips out physically and mentally and emotionally. I am grateful beyond words for what F3 has brought and still brings to my life.